we're all a little insane :nik:

[Nikole Ross]

•• nikole mae ross ••

twenty • bipolar patient • pansexual&&single

living risky, never scared, wander closer to the edge
nothing valued, think no fear, always wondering why you're here
all your purposes are gone, nothing's right, nothing's wrong
nothing ventured, nothing gained, feel no sorrow, feel no pain
now i'll follow my own way, and i'll live to another d**n day
freedom carries sacrifice, remember when this was my life
looking forward, not behind, everybody's got to cross that line
free me now to give me a place, keep me caged and free the beast
falling faster, time goes by, fear is not seen through these eyes
what there was will never be, now i'm blind and cannot see


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♦ the pretty flowers in the dust ♦

from silent dreams we never wake and in this promise that we'll make forever.friends
with this trunk of ammunition, i'd end my days with you in a hail of bullets other.half
after all the things we put each other through and i would drive on to the end inseparable
i'm trying, i'm trying to let you know just how much you mean to me like.family
and as we ran from the cops we laughed so hard it would sting, yeah partners.in.crime
other times i feel like i should go, and through it all, the rise and fall best.friend
i never want to let you down or have you go, it's better off this way best.guy
catch me as i fall, say you're here and it's all over now, speaking to best.girl
holding on forever, promise me that when i'm gone you'll kill my enemies close.friend
when you go, just know that i will remember you, if living was the hardest part good.friend
our memories blanket us with friends we know like fallout vapors steel childhood.friend
and you must keep your soul like a secret in your throat, and if they come secret.friend
let's shout it loud and clear, defiant to the end we hear the call to carry on forbidden.friend
and if the world needs something better let's give them one more reason fake.enemy
and after seeing what we saw can we still reclaim our innocence former.enemy
a drink for the horror that i'm in, for the good guys and the bad guys nik.likes.you
before the sun goes down, and as always, innocent like roller coasters you.like.nik
we'll love again, we'll laugh again, we'll cry again and we'll dance again ex.good.terms
i feel like there's nothing left to do but prove myself to you and we'll keep friendly.rival
lay your head down and stay a while, though you may not remember nik.trusts.you
trust, you said, who put the words in your head, oh how wrong we were you.trust.nik
laugh as we die and we'll celebrate the end of things with cheap champagne drinking.buddy
and now the night club sets the stage for this, they come in pairs she said party.buddy
if i crash on the couch can i sleep in my clothes cuz i've spent the night hangout.buddy
listen to each drop of rain, whispering secrets in vain, frantically nik.confides.in.you
you're not in this alone, let me break this awkward silence, let me go you.confide.in.nik
we could be in the park and dancing by a tree kicking over blades we see average.friend
playground school bell rings again, rain clouds come to play again, has no one so-so.friend
this goodbye, i'd encourage your smiles, i'll expect you won't cry circumstantial.friend
we are young and we don't care, your dreams and your hopeless hair on.and.off.friend
and these thoughts of endless night bring us back into the light, kill this first.name.basis
now i know that i can't make you stay, but where's your heart enemy.of.an.enemy
if life ain't just a joke, then why are we laughing, if life ain't friend.of.a.friend
and as these days watch over time and as these days watch over us fond.of.you
and someone buy me roses and someone burned the church and someone fond.of.nik
well i'll choose the life i've taken, never mind the friends i'm making new.friend
well let's go back to the middle of the day that starts it all, i can't begin good.impression



♠ fatality is like ghosts in snow ♠

and if the sun comes up will it tear the skin right off our bones burn.in.hell
and then as razor sharp white teeth rip out our necks i saw you there arch.enemy
reaches in and tears your flesh apart as ice cold hands rip into your heart hardcore.enemy
all of my hate cannot be found, i will not be drowned by your thoughtless nik.hates.you
dry your eyes and testify, you know you live to break me, don't deny you.hate.nik
i dragged her down, i put her out, and back there i left her where no one no.tolerance
these hands stained red from the times that i've killed you and then nik.backstabbed.you
and in this pool of blood, and as we're falling down i'll see your eyes you.backstabbed.nik
if i cut you down to a thing i can use, i fear there will be nothing good left manipulation
exhausting to lose your own game, selfishly hated, no wonder you're jaded mind.games
look here she comes now, bow down in staring wonder, oh how we love you jealous.of.nik
just once in my life, i think it'd be nice just to lose control, just once, with all jealous.of.you
to touch the sky, i just wanna feel that high, and you refuse to lift me former.friend
that's if you've still got one that's left inside that cave you call a chest ex.bad.terms
burned the church we're hanging out with corpses and dricing in this hearse fake.friend
and they might fill your place, a temporary stand in for your face fake.relationship
watching you from a distance, the distance sees through your disguise nik.distrusts.you
without the mask where will you hide, can't find yourself, lost in your lie you.distrust.nik
the damage you've inflicted, temporary wounds, i'm coming back from average.enemy
fall down i tried, i tried, and we'll all dance alone to the tune of your death nik.dislikes.you
go and try, you'll never break me, we want it all, we wanna play this part you.dislike.nik
love is the red, the rose on your coffin door, what's life like bleeding on strong.tension
you'll never make me leave, i wear this on my sleeve, give me a reason to mild.tension
you have no idea what you're up against because i've seen what they look like bitter.rival
a place in the dark where the animals go, you can take off your skin nik.intimidates.you
a world that sends you reeling from decimated dreams, your misery you.intimidate.nik
take my darkest fears and play them, like a lullaby, like a reason why nik.fears.you
i'm climbing out right now, you're running out of places to hide from me you.fear.nik
we're here alone and if you stay all i'm asking for is a thousand bodies piled up tolerance
so go, go away, just go, run away, but where did you run to and where did annoyance
remains and there's no room in this hell and there's no room in the next avoiding
'cause she's got nothing to say, the angels just cut out her tongue, call her black ignoring
you're just a sad song with nothing to say about a life long wait for unwilling.enemy
but baby when they knock you down and out it's where you oughta stay by.association
undeserving of your sympathy, cause there ain't no way i'm sorry for what new.enemy
steel corpses stretch out towards an ending sun, scorched and black bad.impression



♥ is but a dream for the dead ♥

and without you is how i disappear and live my life alone forever now soul.mate
a dream, will you give your love to me, beg my broken heart to beat, change my mind final
after all these years, one thing is true, constant voice within my heart married
dear my love, haven't you wanted to be with me, and dear my love, haven't you engaged
i see you lying next to me with words i thought i'd never speak, awake and unafraid current
stolen from my eyes, hello angel, tell me where are you, tell me where we go future
but i hear you anyway well i thought i heard you say i like you, we can get out possibility
all the things that you never ever yold me, and all the smiles that are ever history.with
walk away from the choice you made and say goodbye to the heart ex.remaining.chemistry
meet me after dark again and i'll hold you, i want nothing more than to see you forbidden
and maybe tonight, we'll fly so far away, we'll be lost before the dawn, maybe tonight secret
under your spell again, i can't say no to you, crave my heart and it's bleeding nik.loves.you
and in saying you loved me made things harder at best, and these words you.love.nik
not enough of this pain in my heart, for your dying wish i'd kiss your lips unwilling.love
where has my heart gone, trapped in the eyes of a stranger, oh i, i want to go raging.emotions
could be perfect one last night and die like star-crossed lovers when we fight hot.and.cold
you're running after something that you'll never kill, if this is what you want obsession
say goodbye, the hundredth time, and then tomorrow we'll do it again friends.with.benefits
that day when we met you told me this gets harder, well it did enemies.with.benefits
together and in the end we'll fall apart, just like the leaves change in colors future.fling
love it or leave it, you can't understand a pretty face, but you do so carry current.fling
and well i find it hard to stay with the words you say, oh baby let me in past.fling
well when you go don't ever think i'll make you try to stay, and maybe one.night.stand
so bright the sun is ashamed to rise and be in love with all these vampires sexual.tension
when will i miss you so far, and the collision of your kiss that made it so hard desire/lust
what's the worse you take from every heart you take and like a blade you stain seduction
a kiss goodbye, your twisted shell, as rice grains and roses fall at your feet leading.on
and the red ones make me fly, and the blue ones help me fall, and i think playful.flirting
forget about the dirty looks, the photograph your boyfriend took shameless.flirting
and if you call me your sweetheart, i'd maybe sing you a song, but interested.in.you
the tearing sound of love notes drowning out these gray stained windows interested.in.nik
i'd photocopy all the things we could be if you took the time to notice me physical.attraction
scenes then holding hands and life was perfect, just like up on the screen past.crush
i've spent so much time throwing rocks at your window that i never even crush.on.you
black is the kiss, the touch of the serpent son, it ain't a mark or scar that makes crush.on.nik
we go from and in this moment we can't close the lids on burning eyes fleeting.glances
and lifeless cold, into this well, i stared as this moment was held for me passing.smiles



♣ like the sane abandoned me ♣

who walks among the famous living dead, drowns all the boys and girls complete.stranger
come all to this tragic affair, wipe off that make up, what's in this despair never.met
you're too important for anyone, you play the role of all you long to be heard.about
well don't i look pretty walking down the street in the best d**n dress i own seen.around
pull the plug, but i'd like to learn your name, and holding on, i hope never.spoken
so i'll spend my time with strangers, a condition and it's terminal acknowledged
you don't remember my name, i don't really care, can we play the game your way just.met
white lies, you've worn out your dancing shoes this time, just give us too.early.to.tell
you see my eyes are shining bright 'cause i'm out here on the other side indifference
bury me in all my favorite colors, my sisters and my brothers still immediate.family
you said we're not celebrities, we spark and fade, they die by threes distant.relative
lie to me, convince me that i've been sick forever, and all of this family.friend
you play ring around the ambulance, well like you never gave a care nik's.doctor
always there, someone get me to the doctor and someone call the nurse another.doctor
and in our beds i could hear your breathe with help from cold machines fellow.patient
so many bright lights, they cast a shadow, but can i speak, well is it nik.respects.you
and this vanity that i'm breaking lets me live my life like this, and well you.respect.nik
a kiss and i will surrender, the sharpest lives are the deadliest to lead nik.admires.you
you wanna follow something, give me a better cause to lead, just give me you.admire.nik
deep and down we go, touched by angels though i fall out of grace good.influence.on.you
becoming perfect as if they were sterling silver chainsaws going good.influence.on.nik
the amount of pills i'm taking counteracts the booze i'm drinking bad.influence.on.you
so give me all your poison and give me all your pills and give me bad.influence.on.nik
halo, blinding wall between us, melt away and leave us alone again unsure.about
don't say i'm out of touch with this rampant chaos, your reality, i know confusing
blurring and stirring the truth and the lies, so i don't know what's real mixed.feelings
you're in time for the show, you're the one that i need, i'm the one that i loathe love.hate
alright, give up, get down, it's just the hardest part of living, alright she wants stalker
well they encourage your complete cooperation, send you roses mentor.to.you
and the whole time always giving, counting your face among the living mentor.to.nik
and i'll keep on making more just to prove that i adore every inch of sanity sympathize
you said you read me like a book, but the pages are torn and frayed you.intrigue.nik
and the beauty that i'm faking lets me live my life like this, and well nik.intrigues.you
i hope i'm not mistaken by the news i heard from waking and it's hard information.source
let them, i can't forget them, i'll never let them hurt you, i promise protective.of.you
running away and hiding with you, i never thought they'd get me here protective.of.nik
piecing every thought together, find the words to make me better emotional.support
will it fill our hearts with thoughts of endless night time sky, can you take emotional.about
honest observation during this operation found a complication in your heart complications
all the little pieces falling, shatter, shards of me too sharp to put back other (specify)

[Nikole Ross]

doctors • patients • other
♠ lucky lads ♠ and ♥ lovely lasses ♥

cha! yet another plotpage by myst so hands off!
i swear if anyone steals i will make sure the whoooole internet knows it!
intro lyrics are from Life On My Own by 3 doors down, they really fit
relation lyrics are by my chemical romance and evanescence, a
line from almost every song once again, though it's mostly MCR
the graphics are mine, though the images were found off of
some Michelle Trachtenberg fansite and are credited to the
photographers. color fader by vex.net and title lyric from evanescence
once again, i'm fine with almost any relation, cuz drama is just fun
keep in mind nik's presonality, she's not the most stable person around
so i can reject relations, but i'll still try to work with ya all the same
all you have to do is fill in the form below, please don't code or quote
just try to give me something to go with, just saying "Nik is nuts!"
will give me nothing to go off of and that's just not fun at all! try
to include how they met (unless you want them to meet in rp), and
what your character thinks about nikole, it just helps and isn't boring
thanks fer plotting with meh ^_^

Form
[b]full name:[/b]
[b]goes by:[/b]
[b]age&&occupation:[/b]
[b]relations:[/b] min of 2 please <3
[b]your char says:[/b] in first person; what your char thinks of nik, how they met, etc. etc.
[b]nik says:[/b] if i posted in your plot, that is
[b]icons:[/b] two matching 100x100 icons, post the link
OR
[b]celeb:[/b] so i can find/make meh own icons ;3
[b]extra info:[/b] anything else?

♠ james alexander ross ♠

well, nik can call him JAMIE, but only nik
calls him that, everyone else just calls him ROSS
this stud man is to hawt to be a doctor, right?
wrong! be he's too hawt to be single, that's fer sure
at only twenty nine he's still got a lot to show the world

after all the things we put each other through and i would drive on to the end inseparable
and as these days watch over time and as these days watch over us fond.of.you
and someone buy me roses and someone burned the church and someone fond.of.nik
so go, go away, just go, run away, but where did you run to and where did annoyance
bury me in all my favorite colors, my sisters and my brothers still immediate.family
becoming perfect as if they were sterling silver chainsaws going good.influence.on.nik
running away and hiding with you, i never thought they'd get me here protective.of.nik
will it fill our hearts with thoughts of endless night time sky, can you take emotional.about

ross says:
Where do I start with Nik? Heh, well she's my little sister and I take care of her. It's kind of in the job description. Not the easiest thing in the world...she's so damn difficult and independent. Or she wants to be. That gets really irritating. Almost like having a child around. All the same, she's my sister and she's there for me, too, I guess. Nik always knows how to cheer me up when I'm down, at least. It kills me to see her go through so damn much, but she's a strong girl, so I know she'll be alright.

nik says:
Ross is my big brother, so I get to call him Jamie. Since our parents died he's always taken care of me and watched over me. He's always there when I need him most. And least. That's a little annoying. The smallest scrape and he rushes me to the hospital for a full body x-ray. If anyone just looks at me wrong he pounces. That's kinda amusing, actually. Anyways, I know he's always there for me, even though he's always trying to "set me on the right course." What good big brother wouldn't, though?




♠ doctor gregory house ♠

as far as i can tell, everyone just calls him HOUSE though
it sounds like a bad nickname, but he's a doctor so he
kind of has to go by his last name. this man at the
age of forty-two managed to run, ohmygod, the
Department of Diagnostic Medicine! he prolly cheated

we're here alone and if you stay all i'm asking for is a thousand bodies piled up tolerance
so go, go away, just go, run away, but where did you run to and where did annoyance
steel corpses stretch out towards an ending sun, scorched and black bad.impression
you don't remember my name, i don't really care, can we play the game your way just.met
white lies, you've worn out your dancing shoes this time, just give us too.early.to.tell
you play ring around the ambulance, well like you never gave a care nik's.doctor
halo, blinding wall between us, melt away and leave us alone again unsure.about
you said you read me like a book, but the pages are torn and frayed you.intrigue.nik

house says:
"Somehow, she managed to change my opinion of her at least three times within five minutes. That may actually be a record. She went from annoying drug-fiend, to just annoying, to an interesting case. It's about as interesting as clinic duty gets. At least I can thank her for keeping me away from some idiot teen trying to get some birth control behind their parents' backs. Still, it'd make diagnosing her a hell of a lot easier if she'd just shut up and go along with everything."

nik says:
"I...don't know. Odd response to an opinion, right? Though I'm sure Dr. House has that affect on others. On the one hand every time he says something I want to hit him. Or beat him with his own cane, which ever is more amusing. On the other he's trying to save my life. Kind of. So I should not not like him? At least he's interesting, I'll give them that. Probably on purpose, but still interesting. People normally don't surprise me much any more. He does. That's more than anyone can say."

[Dr. Gregory House]

full name: Gregory House
goes by: Greg, Dr. House, House
age&&occupation: Forty nine, Head of the Department of Diagnostic Medicine
relations: steel corpses stretch out towards an ending sun, scorched and black bad.impression
so go, go away, just go, run away, but where did you run to and where did annoyance
we're here alone and if you stay all i'm asking for is a thousand bodies piled up tolerance
you don't remember my name, i don't really care, can we play the game your way just.met
white lies, you've worn out your dancing shoes this time, just give us too.early.to.tell
you play ring around the ambulance, well like you never gave a care nik's.doctor
your char says: "Somehow, she managed to change my opinion of her at least three times within five minutes. That may actually be a record. She went from annoying drug-fiend, to just annoying, to an interesting case. It's about as interesting as clinic duty gets. At least I can thank her for keeping me away from some idiot teen trying to get some birth control behind their parents' backs. Still, it'd make diagnosing her a hell of a lot easier if she'd just shut up and go along with everything."
nik says: if i posted in your plot, that is
celeb: Hugh Laurie

Feel free to add or change anything.

[Nikole Ross]

added! <3 replying to yours now. just added two things at the bottom, but those two are from nik's pov. any conflicts let me know.